With this blog I thee wed you all over again!

There's a lot to catch up on which I'll blog about later. I'm devoting this blog to the woman I've devoted my life to for over 20 years! She is the glue that binds this home, the mediator, the sounding board for all of life little and big problems. She is the cushion that absorbs all the wrath that I spout out at the kids, For I can't stand by and take the disrespect that I see them hurl at mom and myself. The unselfish acts of kindness that she shows to the kids and myself. She will buy the kids anything and everything to keep them groomed and clothed, while forgoing needed necessities that she could use herself! I force her to get needed items so she can maintain her girlish beauty. I believe this cancer is taking its toll on Donna mentally because of the added thoughts of the "what if" scenarios that play through the psyche. Donna has a kind heart and has the hardest time saying no, she will use" maybe" or' we'll see" instead and the kids will key in on that as a yes and you promised. I don't like to fault her she is the woman I married all those years ago and I love her the most out of everything on this earth! Her humorous side is what keeps it all worth while for when Donna is not laughing or joking then I know her world is failing. I would not stand to see her get hurt intentionally ever. Thats why, when we get in heated discussions over something that was misquoted or the the lines of communications are misinterpreted and feeling are being trampled on I must digress and take every aspect and word being said and ascertain the feelings be felt in that moment to rectify the situation now. Trying to be very clear on the meanings and intentions of any subject is key and with all that said, it must be clearly stated that as your husband and Friend I wound never do or say anything to undermined your feelings and furthermore it is my job to be your biggest strength and support. So when the kids are on you and I'm not helping the matter because they are taking me to levels of stroking out I need to count to 10, leave the room an let your loving kindness take its rightful place. So with all that is happening and the bearish moods I'm dealing with, the fear, the patients issues, the overall dealing with physical and mental fatigue. I should still be able to pull it up by the boot straps and garner the love and support you need from me. I LOVE YOU SO DEARLY THAT THE THOUGHT OF LOSING YOU THE MOST WOULD ALSO KILL ME!! So with this blog I thee wed you like it was our first time and I am giving the biggest fight of my life for you so we can live long lives together and by God mercy and grace he will grant us this prayer together. Love forever and in to eternity, Your Husband Dave